turn and face the change.

i keep changing my mind on what i want to do. i know what i truly have always wanted to do and it's always in the back of my mind. i think i'm going to go for it, i mean why wouldn't i? you only live once. it's what i have planned on since ages ago but keep doubting myself. i think i'm taking a year off to decide. anyways..moving on, today was a blast! it consisted of:

1. opening presents with danielle.

2. going to nashville with her and some others.

3. eating at macaroni grill, scribbling all over the table.

4. i helped D pick out the cutest dress ever for new year's.

5. looked at all the lights in opryland, watched a killa' water fountain show, took some goofy pictures, had some rich hot chocolate. damn, it was rich.

thats about it!

it's sideways and we're screaming about who knows what.

ohhh.

it's been a fabulous weekend so far! we spent the whole day in nashville yesterday. picked up our keys to our apartment that is officially ours now, went to panera bread, lowe's and picked out all of the colors for our apartment (i caaant wait to paint!), and went to mt.juliet for pajama shopping. sooo.... lots of shopping to do today and gift exchanging with friends. tomorrow, going to nashville with some friends and looking at christmas lights and more exchanging gifts! :)
i'm glad i have a tree in my room thats not dying... my parents HAD to buy a real tree the day after thanksgiving and thanks to them, the big tree in the living room is completely dead. they think it's funny, i don't. at all. i can't wait to wake up christmas morning and open presents with them to our DEAD tree (sarcasm there).

anyways. the weather needs to be way colder, i'm ready for some snow.

holiday flicks.

i get lost in these movies during the holidays.

hurry.

I'm waiting on Chase to get here with a pizza from Papa John's :) He needs to hurrrry, I have barely eaten anything today. Anyways, my hair has alotalotalot of blonde streaks. I like it! I was definitely ready for a change. Everyone tends to go dark in the fall/winter, I wanted to go lighter. Oh yeah I watched stylista on tv earlier for the first time and now I am addicted. So much to do tomorrow, damn. The weekend has flown by!

12 days.

This is Bella! The new member of the family :) She's toooo friggen' cute. Only 1 and 1/2 pounds so far. I'm getting my hair done today, goodbye dark hair with red streaks. Hello brown hair with caramel streaks. Hm, not much I feel like writing about. I gotta send out christmas cards asap and start my baking extravaganza in the kitchen. I'm making baskets FULL of stuff for friends and family. Anyway, gotta go shopping. Later.

au revoir.

you expect to feel some kind of high, when you achieve something you've been waiting for for so long. today, i was told the math i was trying to finish wasn't required to graduate that i had been doing it for the hell of it pretty much. sooo i'm all done, goooooodbye highschool. i don't feel any different, i don't feel like i made a huge accomplishment, i don't feel anything? maybe it hasn't hit me yet! i think the things you expect to be most exciting end up being way less than that. i think excitement comes out of the unexpected, at least thats how it usually goes for me anyways.

up until 3:30 a.m. reading this. i don't want it to end!

+thai lunch with ashleigh tomorrow, finally i get to see her :)

busy busy.

i had to break. all this math homework is about to make my head explode. the only thing good out of this is i'll be officially done with highschool in two weeks. thank god.

anyway, i'm waiting for the phone to ring. art institute lady is calling me for an interview since i can't make it to nashville this week. btw, just now i realized i missed gossip girl last night! wtf!! ugh. i'm so ready christmas break, puhlease hurry.

i wish i was here:

she takes some beautiful pictures.

I...

just deleted a ton of blog entries. they felt pointless, useless.

this is so so so true:

"Life is to be lived, not controlled, and humanity is won by continuing to play in the face of certain defeat."-Ralph Ellison